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Came back from drama practice today with my head low. It didn't help brighten up my mood when I came home to an empty house and also to the threatening dark clouds that were hovering above. My maid opened the door and I went straight to my room. Alright, I didn't get the main lead, disappointed, yes, but it has greatly shaken me, in a way. I'm sorry. I just thought I would get it. Congrats Fareen anyway for getting it. Guess you deserved it.

I feel like getting away from everything right now, and just sit for a moment, without anything to worry about. But I guess that will be a never dream come true. You can break a man and he still can go on but when you break a man's spirit, I think all is lost.

Should she leave the town to a no-man's land?

Heart,
Ee Laine.

ABRSM Theory Exam.

Struggled to wake up this morning for my theory exam. The thought of even waking up to go for my exam sickened me. I just wanted to lay there on my bed and think of him.

I got up at around 7.45 and waited for my brother to come out from the showers and got ready. I took awhile to get dress, then got down to eat breakkie and called mum. Mum dropped me off at the Sri Permata, where I was taking my exam again this year, and I went to find for the classroom I was taking my exam in. At 8.50, we had to be in our exam rooms and be seated. So we waited patiently till it was 9 to start.

BUT..... I waited.. and waited.. and waited.. and waited..

AND

The invigilator finally told us that our [those taking Grade 6] papers were not here yet. I was like "What the?!" Seriously, it was already like 9.10. Like hello?! What kinda system is this. When the papers came, I got a photo stated one. I paid like 200+ to sit for my paper and I got a photo stated one. Argh.. Whatever lar..

After I finished my paper, I was practically skipping. Haha.. Finally over. I just hope the results would be ok.

It has been a long day, but it's not going to end yet, until after my Chinese tuition. Sigh. Oh well.. I'm running late for tuition now. See ya peeps.

OHHH!!! I almost forgot! Drama's still on! Got the new scrip! =D Might get the main lead. BIG FAT MAYBE. Worth a try. =)

Heart,
Ee Laine

Trip To The Saloon

Had my haircut again yesterday. I don't have a picture with me now. Haha.. I took a few but the angles are all not right. I look terrible in the pictures. I guess you'll have to see it for yourself, unless until I take one nice picture of myself.

I'm beginning to like it myself now you know, dear.

Heart,
Ee Laine.

Thrive?

Awoke with a slight headache and some pain in the eyes. Finally after struggling awhile in bed, I finally woke up. Without brushing my teeth and washing my face, I switched on the computer and now here I am on my blog writing a post. I'm still feeling a little tired here. Wish to go back to my bed.


Mankind should never just survive, we got to thrive.

My inspiration of the day, early in the morning. When my friend told me this, I had to write this down. Isn't it true, that we have to thrive everyday? Everyday is a chance to improve ourselves and more forward. When you face obstacles, stop and solve them instead of sweeping them under the carpet and more forward. Sometimes you've to stop and think and analyze, have you gone forward, or have you actually went backwards? Thrive to your best in everything you do, because you can change today but tomorrow might not come for some of us. And I think it's time for me to more forward now, and for most of us too.

I just found out that Easter rally won't be held on the 28th anymore. It has been posponed to the 4th of April. Argh.. The banner's not approved YET, the preparations are not fully done YET and everything pretty messed up right now. Oh well.

Heart,
Ee Laine.

2nd Post Of The Evening

I haven't gone back to my books yet. I just can't make myself go back to my so familiar room and study. I just wish it's Saturday. It's a long week waiting for me ahead. How great. There's drama, and teacher said he wants to change the scrip *fyi:drama competition is only 2 weeks away* goodness!!, there's Easter rally stuff to be done and not to forget my very important Piano Theory Exam. It's kinda weird that my parents haven't chased me to study. Oh well.

Most of the adults are busy with the coming elections. I really still don't get all the politics stuff, even after listening to my mum explain how it all works and all. Well, even if I do understand, I can't make a difference anyway.


I have never walked on water or felt the wave beneath my feet
but at Your word Lord
I receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me
in the very same place
all my failures surely would have drown me
but You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would I be without You here in my life
here in my life

You have said that all the Heavens sing for joy in one who finds the
way to freedom
truth of Jesus brought from death into this life

And I remember how You found me
in the very same placeall my failures surely would have drown me
but You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reasonI'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would I be without You here in my life
here in my life

A song my heart sings now.


Heart,
Ee Laine.

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I slept in my parent's room on Monday night. It has been ages since I slept there. I still remember when my brother and I used to sleep with my parents when we were younger, they were memorable and I suddenly missed those times when I would stare out their window every night after everyone was asleep at the passing cars. That was always my time to ponder and pray. That night, I found peace sleeping there, even though I slept after shifting my bed there, was dead tired. It freaked me out but I was also happy to be back there. My parents don't exactly understand me, I feel that they don't but sometimes they seem to be trying. They say they love me, but I will never understand why they sounded me, because I'm not in their shoes. Through it all, I know they know what's best for me. They are my parents after all.

Need to get back to my books. 3 last papers tomorrow, but my Theory exam is up next Monday. Sheesh.

Heart,
Ee Laine.

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I know I'm supposed to be studying, but it ain't going into my lil puny brain, so I'm just online discussing some Easter Rally stuff with those 2 dudes, Wai Leem and Aaron Ng. sigh. Responsibilities never taken seriously nowadays. Well, for instance my studies. My timetable is in a mess. With my school exam and theory exam after that, goodness, it's crazy. Then about the drama. We haven't actually had a real combined practice yet. It's a disaster. And also with Easter Rally coming up, it has already occupied most of my time. To sum it all up, I need a break, like right now. Someone, anyone, HELP ME!

Love you baby.

Heart,
Ee Laine.