2/10/07

How time flies... Soon, it's going to be another year and thinking back, I see that many many things have changed. Some the good, some the bad. But when I look at myself, I realised I myself haven't really improved myself for the better that much. Disappointed. Though I see no point crying over spilt milk, I'm trying my best to do what has to be done before the year comes to a close, once again.

Had a long chat with my brother on Sunday night. I missed talking to him*you know bro-sis bonding time kinda thing* It's nice to talk to him, it's not when he lectures though XD The bottom line is, he's a good brother =)

Gosh, I just finished 125grams of gummies with aquatic animal's shape. Dad just came to see what I was doing and took one of it. Better go buy more of these!

Heart,
Ee Laine

Prayer Answering God.

After almost a month without updating my bloggie, I'm back.

I got a new phone after that stupid incident *refer to post "unbelievable"* I'm still using the same number peeps. I would really appreciate it if you would just send a short message to my number for me to save it. Thanks.

These past few weeks have been problems after problem. Troubled lil mind here.. Haha.. Though, there're reasons why I named my post "prayer Answering God". Firstly, He gave a new phone, one I didn't deserve but asked for. Secondly, He gave me refuge when I was troubled and people willing to listen about my problems and encouragements. Lil things brighten up people's day, you just never know when and never know who.

Today was my first time back up singing in youth for worship. I was far from nervous actually, excited more like it but thanks for all the encouragements peeps =)

All the best to those who are taking PMR, I guess this is a lil late. Oh well.

Heart,
Ee Laine

My heart.

You can say, there were very few that touched my heart, but many that had broken my heart. Few had left sweet memories with me but many had left deep scars within. The only reason why I'm writing this is because I can't stand it anymore. Though you might not know you're hurting me, it doesn't matter, I'll still be there for you, till the very end.

From the very bottom of my heart,
Ee Laine

Unbelievable

I couldn't bring myself to tell this to everyone but here goes....

Well, you see my dad misplaced my phone and HE CAN'T FIND IT!

I'm still pissed off my parents haven't find my phone back. I'm so sorry to those who tried to get me, I can't do anything about that. Just try to get my house, alright? Call all you want, drive my parents up the wall. Haha.. I didn't mean that, I would kill you if you do call my house so many times. I wrote this post just to say this. I still can't believe it that my parents are still IN THE PROCESS of finding my phone. They've used up all my patience.

P/S-Thanks Sal, Joel, Ben, Eric and Ian for the encouragement/advice yesterday and today. I think you know what I mean.

Heart,
Ee Laine

Pure Tired

The past few days had been a few hours of sleep and being out the whole day. It has been really tiring.

3rd August
Had to wake up at 6.30 to wake my brother up and I had to wake up at 7 so my mum though why not wake up at 7 too because there was only one alarm clock working in the house and sadly mummy was away. There was suppose to be a tuition class at 8 but my mum called me up at 7.45 to tell me it was canceled. I went to school in a mess. If you didn't know, I don't have control over my temper when I'm really tired. Just a tip. Don't disturb me when I'm tired. There was thing bunch of guys who disturbed me in class[well, they always so] and well, I yelled at them. I know I shouldn't have done that and there's no excuse but I couldn't stand it. That's basically Friday.

4th
11th SPM National Bible Knowledge Quiz 2007[CHS]
I didn't exactly sleep really early last night either[like I was suppose to]. I started my day early at 5.30. I was ushering so had to be in school by 6.30[no, I'm not complaining]. When I reached school, took a shirt and went to change. After that, I was assigned to clean the hall. I had to carry this load full of rubbish bag to the garbage store in the far end of the school. Man, my hand is aching now. All the ushers had to attend a briefing at 6.55. After we were dismissed, we were around giving booklets to everyone. I had to be at the registration counter because there was lack of people. After the registration, participants were ordered to the open area in front of the foyer to gather before they started off. After a prayer and all, participants were dismissed to their classrooms. Everything passed in a blur after that. I was in cf room most of the time, enjoying the company of few of my dear friends. I didn't stay back for the whole thing. Had to follow Cheryl back to her house and take a bath and eat then rush to youth. Today's topic in youth was "acceptance". It really hit me hard in the head when Jonathan said Calvary Youth wasn't ready to give up anything, not our clique, the feeling of being secure around our friends and maybe even 5 minutes. Most of the time, I really do try to talk to a newcomer, or maybe someone without a friend. but sometimes, I'm so caught up in my clique I forget about them. At times, we have to put ourselves in other people's shoe. How would they feel? If they weren't accepted, would they come back to CY anymore? Our leader's vision is to see CY grow, and it's up to you and I to make that come true. Jonathan, Emilia, Jen, Joel, Clarin, Christine, Se-Ken.. and the other leaders.. They're there to guide us, they can't take care of all the unaccepted in our youth group. Do remember, A lollipop is always available from Ben Toh to reach out, just ask! Choir was after that, then Ben Jin sent me to 1u[thanks again] because my parents were there. Had this boring function to attend there. I reached home at about 11 and once again slept really late.

5th
Sunday. The usual routine. Wake up, get ready, breakfast at home then we're off to church as a family. Sermon, Holy Communion, Benediction then end of service. Rush to KFC to get our lunch then got back to church for our first aid course. Our[my brother and I] last class to attend. Total of 7 classes from the 24th of June every Sunday at 1.30-4.00. And we had our practical exam today. Everyone in class had to take turns being a casualty and a first-aider. I was paired with my brother[again] and I thank God it was him because if he wasn't there I would have failed. When it was my turn to become the casualty, he was needed to massage my thighs. It's really ticklish the way he did it[LoL]. He did great I guess. 4.00.....Wow! Finally I finished my first aid course! and I was exhausted and couldn't wait to go home. Later did I know..... mum couldn't start her car[she was in Bangsar], that meant I was still stuck in church[nightmare!]. Then there was... Ben Ong to the rescue![what?!] My mum found out that actually the car battery was flat[yes, FLAT] and we had to go to a petrol station to get one. Then we took Ben's car back to my mum's car and he changed the car batt. Took round 15 mins then we were heading home! Yay! That time was already 6. After taking a bath and now I'm in front of the computer finishing this post.

Well, it's been a wonderful yet busy weekend. I thank God for giving me strength to help me throughout the whole day yesterday and today. Thank you Min, Stephen, Ben, Kel, Ben Jin, Asher, Eric, Cheryl, Rachel, Thong Ding and all, I guess without you guys this weekend, it would have been pretty meaningless. =)

Heart,
Ee Laine

Time.

I feel like I'm running to take back time. Gripping onto time so hard it runs through your fingers. I want them back. But every time I try, I lose even more time. I sit there, and I say to myself "How nice if things were back to normal. If we wouldn't have anymore awkward silences, we could talk endlessly until our mouth were so dry. Things happened, I tried to fix it but I didn't know we would end up not talking anymore. Many things has changed since January. I miss those times where I could just lay there, and feel so free. Half a year has gone, have I made the right choices? Done the right things?" and the list goes on.... one thing i know is that I'm quite happy where I am now and I don't want things to change. but then things change, people change, some things are just unavoidable. Sometimes I feel like a lost sheep, and I need my Shepherd to lead me back to the herd. And sometimes I sit there and feel so left out, I so wish that someone would just walk up to me and talk to me.. Many may see me as the bubbly and always hyper kinda person, but I do have my down times too. Brightening some one's day is so simple I think even small kinder gardeners know how to do it. The only thing you need to do is to go up to your friend and talk to them. When you're down, you would really like someone to do that too. Why not be that someone so someone else life may be bless by what lil things you've done. No matter how small your job, God sees.

Heart,
Ee Laine

Motivational Talk.

I was sent for a motivational talk last week [by I don't know which teacher.well, way to go Ee Laine], it was so boring. Well, I survived. I learnt one thing when I walked out that door, I hate people who interrupts when someone else is talking. I did listen throughout the talk, just that I was ready to fall asleep anytime because it was conducted in Chinese[good heavens!]. After we got back to class[I wasn't the only one in my class who went for that stupid thing alright], teacher told us[those who went for the pathetic talk] that we had to present it in front of the class what WE have learnt. "The counselors told me that............[Your future is the result of your present]." I jotted down some stuff there ok. That proves I WAS listening! I never did regret listening[though it might be really pathetic to me, but still]. I did found out how lucky I was too. Well, I'm really blessed, more like it.

Heart,
Ee Laine