Time.

I feel like I'm running to take back time. Gripping onto time so hard it runs through your fingers. I want them back. But every time I try, I lose even more time. I sit there, and I say to myself "How nice if things were back to normal. If we wouldn't have anymore awkward silences, we could talk endlessly until our mouth were so dry. Things happened, I tried to fix it but I didn't know we would end up not talking anymore. Many things has changed since January. I miss those times where I could just lay there, and feel so free. Half a year has gone, have I made the right choices? Done the right things?" and the list goes on.... one thing i know is that I'm quite happy where I am now and I don't want things to change. but then things change, people change, some things are just unavoidable. Sometimes I feel like a lost sheep, and I need my Shepherd to lead me back to the herd. And sometimes I sit there and feel so left out, I so wish that someone would just walk up to me and talk to me.. Many may see me as the bubbly and always hyper kinda person, but I do have my down times too. Brightening some one's day is so simple I think even small kinder gardeners know how to do it. The only thing you need to do is to go up to your friend and talk to them. When you're down, you would really like someone to do that too. Why not be that someone so someone else life may be bless by what lil things you've done. No matter how small your job, God sees.

Heart,
Ee Laine